Like most humans, this recovering procrastinator sometimes balks at another’s authority over me. Let’s continue looking at Psalm 19:12-13 (NKJV) and the insights from Strong’s Concordance. Please read Who Can Understand? (August 17, 2015) and Trying to Understand (August 24, 2015).
“Who can understand his errors? Cleanse me from secret faults.
“Keep back your servant also from presumptuous sins; Let them not have dominion over me. Then I shall be blameless. And I shall be innocent of great transgression.”
According to this, my cleanness, freedom, innocence is related to whether or not I have sinned in God’s eyes. “Transgression” here refers to breaking away from just authority – specifically God’s to whom the psalmist is speaking.
Of course God is our highest authority, but there are people to whom we are responsible too. A counsellor once told me a prideful person is one who does not want anybody else telling him what to do. Even that can lead to procrastination – choosing my preference over God or another person to whom I am responsible.
Therefore I sometimes refuse to do what needs doing when it needs doing. “I don’t have to pick George up right at 5 p.m. I can shop a little longer.” “I’ll return those club record books when it’s more convenient. I don’t think Jane needs them now.” Or a child’s version, “I don’t have to go in until she uses my middle name!”
I want to be “free” of that authority or of that needed thing, so I choose something else. Maybe it’s a rebel heart? This decision increases my burden physically (Still gotta do it), mentally (It distracts me), emotionally (It weighs on me), and spiritually (I resisted Him).
The apparent way to freedom – my way – brings bondage. The apparent way to bondage – respecting God’s authority through obedience – brings freedom. I’d rather be ruled by our good God than by my bent to procrastinate.
Still, I will sin. That means I need the fullest cleaning, the greatest freedom which comes from Jesus’s sacrifice for me. God, looking at me through Christ, sees me as innocent. Thank you, Lord! Our God equips us by His teaching and Holy Spirit’s power. AND He provides for our failings through the cleansing blood of Christ. Hallelujah!
What helps your heart want to please God more than to procrastinate?